Ever feel like you’re not good enough? Ever feel like curling up in a ball on your bed and staying there forever? Ever feel like people don’t understand you? Ever feel like you’re living a fake life? Ever feel like you’re meant to do more? Ever feel selfish then guilty? Ever feel completely stumbling through the day? Ever feel like you just need a few days to yourself? Ever thought about living somewhere isolated? Ever been scared of ending up alone? Or not finding love? Ever thought about never being loved? Ever thought of failure?
I guess this is sort of a heavy post, but really, if you can’t handle it, then leave. The thought of that made me smile. But actually, if you are just going to judge someone’s blog, tumblr, twitter or other form of self expression, then don’t continue reading it, just leave. It’s not your place to make any judgments, about anyone. You don’t know them. Even if you walk a mile in someone’s shoes, you’re not walking through their whole life. I’m not going to lie. For me, sometimes it’s a struggle to get up in the morning. And I’m not talking about the early wake up time.
I’m talking about the thought of facing another day. Another day in the same place, following the same routine, with the same people, and the same feelings of stress, anxiety and frustration. Another day working towards a goal that society has placed upon us. Even teachers admit, we don’t have freedoms, we do what the system wants us to do. If we don’t, we don’t survive. Compare this to The Hunger Games. No, I’m not a Hunger Games freak, but what’s the problem of being one? & if you haven’t read the books then you should check them out.
Our situations and theirs are analogous. The districts do what it takes to survive, that happens to be doing everything the Capitol tells them to do. Because the Capitol has all the power to destroy the districts. The districts sacrifice their children each year for the hunger games and for what? To teach them a lesson about revolting? No, it’s just for pure entertainment. Humans like to watch others fail to feel superior. In reality, they do not know what it is like to be in another person’s situation. All they do is think of “clever” commentary while they watch with popcorn from the sidelines. We live in a society where we can either be set up for success or for total failure. Yes, you can blame us for failing, but the world doesn’t want just all to succeed. Because if everyone succeeded then the word would be useless. What would success be if everyone experienced it? But forgive me, I’m diverging.
Life is tough. Yes I understand. Yes I understand that I have it better than a lot of people. Yes I understand that I am very fortunate for the environment I am growing up in. At least I’m aware of all this. Some people complain about how hard their life is; their parents bought them a car, pay for their gas, pay for college, pay for an iPhone, pay for a laptop, and yet they’re making you pay for those shoes? WOW YOUR LIFE IS DIFFICULT, EXCUSE ME WHILE I LOOK FOR TWO SHITS TO GIVE. I’m just so tired of people.
I guess it all goes back to human nature. People always aren’t satisfied. They will always want more. We are run by greed, and it will be the death of us. Some people live without running water. Some people live with tarp walls. Some people don’t have parents or any relatives. Some people cannot provide for their families. Some people don’t know what it’s like to sleep in a warm room. Look at where you are right now, and then think about those people. You’re fortunate aren’t you? Just because someone drives a beat up car, doesn’t mean you should question their character. We have gotten so materialistic that it sickens me.
Sometimes I look at people and just shake my head. Because people disappoint me.